hmm.

went to work at 3pm.

conducted 2 parties.

i reallie envy kids.

no worries for them.

they can smile whole dae.

when bdae.

got so lots of presents.

hai.

when im a kid in the past.

get even get so much presents b4.

hai.

kids ah.

enjoy ur childhood to the fullest wor.

grow up no more tat kind of feelings liao de wor.

hai.

-eNvY-

den hor guess wat.

dee ask mi y my uniform so big.

izzit i wear the new one.

i said.

huh no lah.

same lah.

den i told her.

i slim down lah!

LOL~

den i go tell everyone tat dee sae my uniform big.

ask them izzit true.

they sae yes leh.

so i tell them i slim down le lor.

haha.

den serene ask mi izzit i sick.

i said ya lor.

last week im sick mah.

hai.
actually these few daes reallie got no appitite to eat.

eat real less these few daes.

when im working i feel real hungry.

but when i go for break.

dun feel like eating anymore le.

so i din eat lor.

juz ate yogurt and 2 drinks for the whole dae.

hai.

lydat how can wun slim.

but wat to do.

i suffered from an uncured illness le.

dun hafta slim down till when.

hai.

guess wat.

8+ 9 i was keep on looking ard my store.

looking at my hp.

but nth.

hai.

nvm.

11 le.

same.

looking ard.

looking at my hp.

hai.

still the same.

actually punch out at 2300 de.

but customer in leh.

how can go off juz lydat.

den stay lor.

i told faridah i help u clear first den i go lah.

she sae ok lor.

make it 2330 lah.

i said ok.

2330 le.

i told her i ouch out ah.

she said ok.

i go punch le.

customer in again.

i asked her.

can manage or not.

she sae can lah.

ask mi to go off better.

in case no bus.

ok lor i go off.

actually i can take ivy de cab home de ba.

she 0000 mah.

but i dun wan lah.

i wan to be alone to reflect my whole dae de feelings.

when im sad den i will do tat de lah.

guess i will do it for a long time.

hai.

so i chose to take bus.

longer time to be quiet.

stepped out store at 2345.

walked to the bus stop.

alone.

hai.

ALONE.

i hate to be alone.

yeah!

I HATE IT!

feeling so down.

and depressed ba.

feel like tearing.

but i hold back.

hai.

board the bus.

it was so damn cold.

i was like shivering almost half of my journey.

hai.

wat to do.

was hugging to myself.

and my bag.

hai.

den my leg was so pain.

muscle cramp.

toes like having blisters.

hai.

wat a dae.

i tink alot during my journey.

but.

the higher hopes i had.

the greater disppointment i will get.

its true.

but.

i reallie asked myself.

and forced myself too.

not to hope so much.

but i simply juz cant control it.

hai.

wat to do.

AGRH!

i told yuan ying.

i reallie dunno wat i wan.

work oso sian.

no work oso sian.

sch oso sian.

no sch oso sian.

wat i wan sia.

she said.

die lor.

den i told her.

ya.

go die better.

but.

if die can reallie solve ALL my problems.

i will rather go.

but.

it cant help mi in anything.

i rmb yun told mi tis.

die is a permenent solution to tempolary problems.

ya.

its true.

so when i met problems.

i seldom tink of dying.

but.

sometimes ba.

so i will rather cry for the whole dae lor.

hai.

one dae i will become dehydrated man.

i always tink tat there are so many ppl ard mi love mi so much.

if i reallie die.

its such a waste man.

i still got my future.

although i reallie dunno hows my future will be like.

i still wana see my future.

hai.

ya.

everyone will see mi happie happie everydae.

but.

they reallie dunno the inner of mi.

so sad de.

hai.

coz i dun wan them to see mi sad.

they will ask mi y y y.

dun feel like telling them.

so juz be happie infront of them lor.

behind everything.

hai.

sad story.

when can the happie cheerful suetlin will be back.

hai.

reallie dunno when.

-wOnDeR-

mayb when my illness is cured ba.

i still haven sae abt my crew outing.

last wed.

which is 14june2005.

we.

the youngster crew went for outing.

at marina south.

alot of ppl is there.

long list to be named.

when i noe i will list them all.

guess wat.

we drank beer.

yeah.

tat include mi.

hmm.

forgotten who suggested wana drink de.

den i said ok.

i wan.

den cheryl and yunrui heard tat.

but the are juz 14.

at first we said cannot lah.

they too young le.

but actually i oso underage for drinking lah.

but.

who cares.

i wanna drink.

so we ordered one jar.

actually is we share de.

but ended up serene treat.

hee.

den.

mi and yuwei share.

cheryl and yunrui share.

lijie and jefflina share.

janice and serene alone drink one glass.

hmm.

nice.

haha.

den aft tat we all went to arcade.

played so much.

reallie had fun tat dae.

den on sat.

18june2005.

hai.

no band.

whole dae free.

sian.

ALONE!

hai.

den i went bugis.

went to buy dee present.

yeah.

i went ALONE!

hai.

ok.

bought le.

den.

did sth real stupid.

ok.

fine.

dun wana talk abt tat le.

den went home aft tat lor.

hai.

sian hor.

den gave the present to dee on sun lor.

she like it wor.

hee.

quite nice lah.

its a necklace.

i share it wif yuwei.

hmm.

yuwei wun be working in mac le ba.

she found a job.

DBS bank.

hai.

will miss her lor.

mi hor.

everything i will ask her.

too rely on her le ba.

i reallie scared i cant cope without her leh.

hmm.

its time for mi to be independant le ba.

ok.

wish her all the best in her job ba.

=)

i had write in the request book tat i wana work on fri le.

WIE.

coz wana keep myself busy.

so tat.

wun tink much ba.

i guess.

but.

i dun tink so.

coz.

hai.

forget it.

nvm.

wait for louise de call ask mi to go work lor.

reallie hope tis fri can start le.

btw.

had posted a testi to.

dar?

reallie dunno wat will he react to tat.

hai.

dun tink so much le lah.

ARGH!

reallie feel like shouting out loud.

REAL LOUD!

hai.

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!